Today is the first day in a month that I’ve fully felt the energy moving in my body. That I’ve felt like my true self. Coming out of the other side of the long and draining cold and flu that’s hit many of us strongly this winter, I had no other option over Christmas and into the new year than to lay low, hibernate, rest and recover…and it’s given me a major revelation.
Historically, January has always been a go-getting month for me. From the 2ndof each month I’d strictly clean up my eating and drinking habits, hit the gym and put pressure on myself to be proactively learning, connecting and goal-setting. I’d scribble smoothie recipes in a brand new notebook, make a list of everyone I was overdue a catch up with and throw myself into a schedule of running a couple of weekly 5ks in the cold whether I wanted to or not.
Not that any of the above aren’t beneficial activities if you’re truly led to them by passion and instinct, but there seems to be an inherent ‘got to, should to, need to’ mentality that can take over us as soon as the dust has settled on New Year’s Day.
As I’m settling into 2019 I’ve had no choice but to loving let go of striving and persistence. The duvet has been my friend, tissues my companion and coughing my new way of communication. But whilst I’ve been an exhausted mess, I’ve also been still, silent, reflective and intentional. Of course, my meditation practice and morning rituals allow me to access this state whenever I need it, but to fully embrace it in January has truly allowed me to find the beauty in slowing down when everyone around me is revving up.
2018 was a rollercoaster of emotions and thinking about the year ahead, every cell in my body had started to resonate with the words TRUST, SURRENDER and SLOW. Little did I know that I’d have to fully embrace them before December had even ended.
So every day this month I’ve taken these words to my yoga mat, I’ve taken them to my meditation cushion and I’ve carried them with me. I’ve made conscious and mindful food choices, but I’ve also enjoyed finishing off the gourmet chocolate bar I was gifted over the holidays and enjoyed a homemade rhubarb crumble after Sunday dinner. I’ve done less. Much less. I’ve finished a book, discovered new podcasts and focused on ‘movement’ rather than ‘exercise’.
So slow down. It will heal your body, your mind and your spirit. This is how I do January now…and I’m loving every minute of it.